Sunday, April 11, 2010


I feel like I accomplished quit a bit. I picked up all my messes, which can pile up if I'm not careful. Sheesh. But, I do clean up..and when I do, I'm pretty meticulous..well, as much as I can be in our small studio apartment. You have to move this, and then that in order to get to that. Which is not my idea of an organized home. Our apartment hasn't really felt like a home, but I shouldn't be caught up in why this isn't like that, or we don't have enough of this. 
I think I've stepped back to look at the way I've been thinking lately. How my want for things overbears my need. I've been trying hard this week to have more control, and worry less of what I don't have.
If I really want to follow Christ, shouldn't I let all my belongings be His hands? Isn't my money and all of my possessions His? 
I've had a hard time the past month or two. Just thinking of old friends, and feeling a bit alone. I think having a lot of time by myself can lead me to want to go out and buy little things I want, when in reality we don't have a lot of money to be spending as a newlywed couple. It is time to be saving our money more than anything.
I miss out on the simple pleasures in life by feeling the need to go to a place I can buy something I like and be surrounded by people I don't know. 
The simple pleasures I think of are reading a book, and sipping tea or coffee, taking a walk or going to the park, writing in a journal, making to-do lists, making something for someone; sewing, embroidering, card-making.
I need to be doing more of these things with the time I have by myself.

I think my mind kind of exploded a bit...but I know it needed to.
More than anything, I want to want one thing. I want to live by the spirit, and not by the flesh. I want to walk closer with Thee.

“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lords glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.” 2 Corinthians 3:17

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

With Most Love&Peace,


Justine said...

Thank you for YOUR thoughts. I love reading your thoughts so much. I am sorry you have been feeling alone. I only have three more weeks of school and then I am all yours! Until then, come up to campus ANYTIME. I am not just saying that, I MEAN that. Also, we must do a lot of crafts this summer and make super cute things.

So excited.

Stephanie said...

This is very inspiring. And something I learned in chapel yesterday is, we need to share with others our struggles. So, thank you for sharing on your blog.

And you are never alone. Christ is with you :]