I think I've stepped back to look at the way I've been thinking lately. How my want for things overbears my need. I've been trying hard this week to have more control, and worry less of what I don't have.
If I really want to follow Christ, shouldn't I let all my belongings be His hands? Isn't my money and all of my possessions His?
I've had a hard time the past month or two. Just thinking of old friends, and feeling a bit alone. I think having a lot of time by myself can lead me to want to go out and buy little things I want, when in reality we don't have a lot of money to be spending as a newlywed couple. It is time to be saving our money more than anything.
I miss out on the simple pleasures in life by feeling the need to go to a place I can buy something I like and be surrounded by people I don't know.
The simple pleasures I think of are reading a book, and sipping tea or coffee, taking a walk or going to the park, writing in a journal, making to-do lists, making something for someone; sewing, embroidering, card-making.
I need to be doing more of these things with the time I have by myself.
I think my mind kind of exploded a bit...but I know it needed to.
More than anything, I want to want one thing. I want to live by the spirit, and not by the flesh. I want to walk closer with Thee.