Saturday, August 8, 2009

For we are fearfully and Wonderfully Made.

Today I gave an hour and a half massage for 90 dollars. Which is more money than I've ever made in an hour and a half! I'm starting my new job here, and it seems so unreal to be making that much money in such a short amount of time. 
During the session I was thinking of how beautifully God has placed each moment and each person in my life. He has done it in a way where everything flows together in harmony, even with the trials that bring difficulties. In those difficulties we can forget the strength God has planned for us once we override those tasks. If it weren't for my mother telling me how good my hands were years ago when I was so young, encouraging me to be a massage therapist, I might not have ever found my way to schooling. If it weren't for Matt encouraging me, when I felt lost and my purpose was meaningless to me, I wouldn't have found my place. If it weren't for that long interview with the director of the school, when we connected on such a level that we understood one another, I wouldn't have been moved enough to attend school. If it weren't for the long distance for a year that Matt and I experienced with one another, I would have never been able to find my individuality on my own. I wouldn't have been able to grow into the woman that I needed to be for Matt, and neither would have Matt been able to grow in the ways that was needed for our relationship to continue to flourish and grow together as a couple. We grew as individuals and when we came back together, we were an even stronger couple. If it weren't for our marriage, and Matt's decision to move here for photography school, I wouldn't be here, investing in others lives. I couldn't have found the opportunities unless I moved to a new place. I have felt vulnerable and scared at times, but I am finding that the more I take the chance to say, "Yes" in trying something new, it brings me to something exciting, and life changing. During open opportunities, I've told myself more, " Don't be scared about this, Lindsay...just say yes."

God calls us to not fear in this world, but to trust and have faith in Him because He knows us, He formed us completely.

Psalm 139:1-18:
1O LORD, You have searched me and known me. 
    
2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
         You understand my thought from afar. 
    
3You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
         And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. 
    
4Even before there is a word on my tongue,
         Behold, O LORD, You know it all. 
    
5You have enclosed me behind and before,
         And laid Your hand upon me. 
    
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
         It is too high, I cannot attain to it. 
    
7Where can I go from Your Spirit?
         Or where can I flee from Your presence? 
    
8If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
         If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there. 
    
9If I take the wings of the dawn,
         If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, 
    
10Even there Your hand will lead me,
         And Your right hand will lay hold of me. 
    
11If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,
         And the light around me will be night," 
    
12Even the darkness is not dark to You,
         And the night is as bright as the day 
         Darkness and light are alike to You. 
    
13For You formed my inward parts;
         You wove me in my mother's womb. 
    
14I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
         Wonderful are Your works,
         And my soul knows it very well. 
    
15My frame was not hidden from You,
         When I was made in secret,
         And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; 
    
16Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
         And in Your book were all written
         The days that were ordained for me,
         When as yet there was not one of them. 
    
17How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
         How vast is the sum of them! 
    
18If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand 
         When I awake, I am still with You.



Love and Peace.
Lindsay

1 comment:

miss indie said...

Oooooh California sounds lovely. I'm so happy for you! God is taking both of your lives is such beautiful directions.

$90 for an hour and a half, that's killer! Congrats on the new job!
xo.